ENTJ's Interpersonal Relationships in the Real World

'An exploration of ENTJ's interpersonal challenges and desires for meaningful connections.'

As an ENTJ, I often find myself in a dilemma when it comes to interpersonal relationships in the real world. On one hand, I seem to have many acquaintances. People might even consider me a social butterfly. However, deep down, I realize that I have very few true friends. I spend a lot of time alone, studying and eating by myself, following my own rhythm. While I sometimes have company, I often worry that others will slow me down. I have little interest in the people around me and feel that they are dispensable. We might chat during class and then go our separate ways after class. We work on projects together but then return to our own lives once they are done. I'm not satisfied with this state. I long for a truly like-minded friend, someone with whom I can have deep conversations. I'm always the one taking the initiative when making plans, and it often feels like others don't think of me. I don't know how to change this. During presentations, my classmates think I'm confident, but in reality, I sometimes feel a bit inferior. Perhaps I haven't reached a high enough level as an ENTJ. I still yearn for excellent interpersonal relationships. At the same time, when relationships get too close, I start to feel it's a burden. It's a real contradiction. I'm not without friends, but just lack those deep connections. Maybe I set too high standards for friends. Sometimes, I'm willing to compromise, but still struggle to find that perfect match.