Are INTPs Emotional Beings?

An exploration of the emotional traits of INTPs based on personal experiences.

Are INTPs very爱哭?

I have consistently tested as an INTP in MBTI tests, and most of the personality traits fit well. However, I sometimes feel that I lack the rationality expected of an INTP. Or perhaps there is a sharp contrast between sensibility and rationality, making it difficult to control my emotions.

At times, I am extremely emotional and empathetic. When stimulated by external media, tears start flowing easily. I often feel a sense of melancholy, as if there is a cloud of unresolved emotions within me.

At other times, I am extremely indifferent, as if everything in the world has nothing to do with me. I observe everything that happens. I perceive, I understand, and I am an outsider, a spectator. Sometimes I even seem to lack emotions, with no fluctuations or waves in my heart, like a machine.

I find socializing exhausting. I have few friends, or only have stage-wise friends when I need to talk and the timing is right. But if I can't find a suitable person to confide in, I feel that it's not something to be shared with others. Hence, I also feel lonely.

After starting work, I have developed a social personality. It's quite helpless. Although I hate the drinking culture, there are occasional social events and business dinners that I have to attend. Presenting in front of many people makes me feel excited. I wonder if it's because my social personality is making my body secrete dopamine to create this illusion so that I can do this well. But even though I'm not timid, I probably don't like such occasions.

Regarding love, although I despise it, I might be a hopeless romantic. Friends are dispensable to me, but my need for love is very high. When infatuated, I can't maintain my usual self-control and calmness. I also can't play the game of love and logic with the other person clearly.

My attitude towards love is similar to Zhao Min's line 'I insist on making it happen'. Once I identify someone, I must pursue them. Even if the outcome is not as I wish, only by doing my best can I accept 'So this is the outcome'. I won't have regrets. Maybe I'm too stubborn.

The four attachment style tests showed that I am an anxious-preoccupied type. 'I hope to invest all my emotions in an intimate relationship, but often find that others are not willing to develop the relationship as closely as I expect. The absence of an intimate relationship makes me uneasy. Sometimes I also worry that my partner won't value me as much as I value them.' This is indeed the case.

But in fact, I have extremely high standards for my partner. There are very few people who can interest me. Here is the ideal partner criteria I wrote two years ago. Although it's too specific, too limited, and too naive. But to sum it up, it's just the word 'admire the strong'.